My Sunflower Tattoo

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When I first got my tattoo or even before I got it I really just wanted something  that was pretty and something I liked. Sunflowers just so happen to be my favorite flower and that was good enough for me.  I knew that a sunflower reminded me of the sun for the obvious reason and that it made me feel happy.  To many a sunflower can mean loyalty, which is something I have a great deal of for my family.  My family is the most important thing to me, they come before anything else. It’s the honest reason I chose a school that was only 20 minutes away from home. To know that my support system was only a hop, skip, and jump away. I can still attend family events without it being a hassle to find a way home.

A sunflower can also symbolize adoration, which is something that describes my feeling for my siblings. They are my favorite people to be around, even though the can annoy the crap at me at times. I happen to be  the oldest of 6 which has caused me to become the mother hen, or “mom friend” to a lot of other people in my life. I worry about their safety, and hope they aren’t doing anything to insanely stupid. But I am also the person that people come to when they need support, or just a friend to talk to. Even if we aren’t friends, I am all ears and want to help everyone, it’s the older sister in me.

My tattoo also reminds me of how much determination I have.  The tattoo artist said to me, “It’s not about your pain tolerance it’s about how determined you are to finish it”.  Once I have set my mind on something, I will succeed no matter what it takes and I will complete that goal. This can be shown with many other objects in my life, like the Macbook I insisted I needed for college, but my parents thought otherwise. It took months of convincing, conversations that lead to nowhere and even arguing to make them believe  that my decision was what I wanted and was the correct decision for me. But in the end my determination bought that macbook, and it made me sit through the annoying pain of my tattoo.

My tattoo at first was just an object that was permanently on my body  but has become a constant reminder of my how much my family means to me, and my caring personality and my determined mindset that helps me pursue my goals.

 


 

This was my first ever college speech, and because it is kinda interesting and more so up lifting I thought I would share it! I was a wreck before I had this speech but it went way better than I thought. I actually scored a 90% on it, which exceeded my expectations. I hope you enjoy it, I put a lot of thought and effort into this on.

Til next time,

Faith

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Negativity has gotten the best of me. 

A question I frequently ask myself is “why am I always so angry?”

Well don’t get me wrong, I am not always angry. I just feel like such a negative person. I complain a lot, and I do very negative things that I would tell others not to, and to be the bigger person. 

For example,  I can be extremely hypocritical, I will yell at my boyfriend for saying something completely rude and do something similar in the next 30 minutes. To be even more honest with you, there are 100 other examples. I tell myself that it’s not fair, and I wish I wasn’t that way, I don’t like being that way. But I guess it’s important that I know it’s wrong. 

Other times, for some awful reason, I really like to start arguments. Believe me it is not my proudest ability. I don’t know whether it’s the attention or the feeling of “winning” but I like to argue. It usually starts out as me wanting to talk about a problem or my opinion, but ends up with me screaming or something else that is completely idiotic. 

I feel like this makes me sound like a completely awful person, I think it is important that I acknowledge things about myself. That I know how have an area to work on in my communication skills and that as I grow and learn things will become easier. 

Does anyone else feel disappointed in themselves for not necessarily being the person they tell others to be? 

Till next time. All the love, 

Faith  

Busy, Busy, Busy

I’ve got some down time for once, so here are my thoughts. Thanks for reading! 

I’ve already been out of school for over a month, but summer literally just started (I mean the summer solstice).  It’s so crazy to me that time has flown by, and. I feel like I’ve wasted it. 

Which I mean that’s probably not true, I’ve done a few fun things. For the most part though I’ve been working my butt off. I work at a children’s clothing store, and I just got offered a manager position (which is crazy ’cause I only started in March). I’ve been training, learning and busting my butt. 

Unfortunately because it’s summer time and my job is in retail, I end up working weird hours. Some days I open, others I close, sometimes I work smack dab middle of the day. Because of that I feel like I see no one. My parents work 9 to 5 jobs, so it’s really tricky to see them. Then there’s my boyfriend and best friend who also have jobs, and also work weird hours. My boyfriend works WAY more then I do, so anytime he’s available I jump at the chance to see him.  My best friend has basically completely opposite hours of each other (or at least it seems that way. We are push on not seeing each other for a week and it feels much longer). 

It’s just so crazy that the world is passing by and well everything that is happening to me. I feel like I need to be making fun mermories instead of just “work” memories. 

Anyone have any ideas on what to do to add a little life into the rest of my summer? 

Your busy midwestern girl, 

Faith 

A Little Step Into College Life

Hey everyone!

I know it has been a while since I last posted but I couldn’t come up with anything good. Instead I am just gonna give a little update or look into my life.

Yesterday I got to go to my college and plan my schedule for next year, but before I got to do that I got to sit through about 4 hours of presentations that were just the same thing over and over again (it made the whole day drag on and I was so ready for it to be over).

My selected major is Nursing, which is something I am very passionate about. There is a downside though, my choice school has the 3rd best nursing school in the state which makes the process of getting into the Nursing school much harder. A lot of it is grades and taking certain courses (as it is for most degrees) but this is really a make it or break it thing because each semester the school only selects about 90 students (and trust me when I say there is a LOT of pre-nursing students in the Class of 2021 at my University).

Thankfully for me though I am very confident, and 100% believe that I can study hard enough and get fantastic grades to become a part of the Nursing school. What made it even better is that I am already ahead of schedule for pre-nursing students. This is because I already have 1 of my 6 science classes finished (which is super exciting!!!). And kinda unexpected, my advisor seemed really impressed and was very excited to see me ahead of the game.

Anyway getting to pick my schedule just made me think about how excited and passionate I am about getting this education and creating a new life for myself.

Til next time,

Faith

What I Hope To Learn This Summer 

img_0544I just graduated high school, and before I head off on my own I want to learn somethings about myself and the world.  Here’s a list of what I hope to learn:

  1. How to love myself. 

Don’t get me wrong. I do love myself. I just want to be more appreciative myself and everything I offer.

2.  Live in the moment. 

I only have a few months before I leave my family, friends and my “normal” life of the last 18 years. I want to cherish everything I do with my best friend, my boyfriend, my brother and sisters because there’s the chance I am going to be missing a lot.

3. Become more open to different opinions. 

College is where you meet new people and that means a lot of new opinions. In the world we live in today, everyone has an opinion on everything. I have to remember that just because my opinion isn’t the same as some else’s does not mean that my opinion is wrong, or their’s is any less important. I must have an open mind and be willing to listen rather than answer or defend.

4. Be my own best friend. 

I am going to be leaving everyone I love. My best friend and I are going to different colleges.  My boyfriend is doing his own thing. My parents are letting me go. While I know that they will still be with me in spirit, and only a text message or a phone call away it is going to be different. (Don’t get me wrong. This isn’t me saying I’m not gonna make new friends, it will just be another new experience.) I want to be able to comfort myself and be my own best friend when it’s needed.

5. Learn to let go and be more forgiving. 

I am the worst at letting things go. I hold onto grudges for an incredibly long amount of time. I still don’t like people who have wronged me or my friends. I can forgive people, but even that takes a while, but letting go is a whole different thing to me. It’s gonna be a lot more difficult.  I want to be a better person, a more forgiving person. I already know this isn’t gonna be easy for me, but I am up for anything.

6. What makes me happy.

More or less I want to discover more things about myself. It’s as simple as that.

7. It’s okay to be alone. 

Alone time is great, but I prefer to “be alone, together” type of person. I think it is important for me to learn and appreciate being alone. Being by myself for whatever reason.

Overall I want to know who I am, and better my personal values. Become a better person, and be more welcoming.

Thanks for reading.

 

Introducing Me

Who am I?

As you guessed by the title of my blog My Life As Faith my name is Faith. I live in the Midwest in the land of cheeseheads and I am getting ready to start my journey into the real world. By the “real world” I mean college.  This is the summer of trying new things I am trying to be healthier by eating better and exercising daily (which is a lot easier said than done). So figured I would try blogging as well, so I mean why not?

I enjoy being outside and doing new things, but more than likely you can find me sitting in bed watching Netflix. I love my family and don’t know what I would do without them. They truly are everything to me. This also includes my boyfriend and best friend but I can tell you more about them later.  I enjoy watching conspiracy theory videos and family vloggers on Youtube. Lifestyle bloggers are probably some of my favorites because I think, “hey maybe I can take some tips from them and get my life together” but that really doesn’t work. I think they truly make blogging an art because their lives and opinions just seem so interesting.

I hope someone out here finds me as interesting as I find other lifestyle bloggers.