January has almost come to end and what a month it has been to bring in the new year. A lot has already happened, and I am just gonne be honest, most of it isn’t good. Let me just share and explain and you will easily understand.
The month started rough, my dad and my stepmom are getting divorced. To me, it was unexpected and disappointing. I won’t go into too much detail about what actually happened between my parents, but I will say that I never expected divorce to come from it. Especially because they have only been together for about 6 years, and in my opinion, that is just too soon for a divorce. While I clearly remember what the divorce between my mom and dad was like, two of my sisters were too young to, and they took it incredibly hard. My half siblings are too young to understand what is going on, which I don’t know if that will be good for them or not, I am hoping it is for the better. It has been incredibly difficult for me, which I wouldn’t have expected. I am away at college, I cannot be there for my dad or siblings
as much as I would like too. It is a lot to take in, and no matter the troubles I have with my stepmom – I never would have wanted this.
About a week later my boss – who I was incredibly close too got fired for something that was not in her control. Without her their it left 3 college kids in charge, all who were in school. I felt like a huge responsibility was put on my shoulders – I am only 19 and a full-time student. All I want is a job that I can manage with school, and while I had a few weeks to figure things out it seemed impossible. Yet I had no idea what else was coming my way – they got rid of the assistant manager position in our district of the company (literally like a week and a half later). Well, I have heard that it was a long time coming, nothing could have been worse for our store. I am basically bossless and I have too much to handle while I am in school. I have contemplated quitting but I can’t afford to just not have a job, and trying to find other jobs with small shifts seems impossible.
I am currently writing this from my dorm room – school started again. As you can see I am seriously overwhelmed. I simply do not want to be here, I have very little keeping me here and with all the stress in my life right now, I would like to move on with my life. Unfortunately, that is all a lot easier said than done.
Overall this month has kinda been a shit show. There really is no other way to put it. I was trying to do yoga for a month straight, I have completely failed that.
I did do a few new fun things. By far the best thing has been thrifting, I find it quite stress relieving and relaxing. I found some good things, but I have also realized I have too many clothes, almost nothing fits in my dorm anymore. So I am trying to limit myself, but I think that just may be easier said than done.
Anyway… That has been my month in review. I pray that February is much better.
Also, I think I will continue to do these little “recaps” not only for content and sharing but so that next year I can look back and reminisce.
Til next time,